In the midst of realizing the importance of change while also acknowledging the strength it calls for, Donald Miller, the author of Through Painted Deserts writes, “It might be time for you to go. It might be time to change, to shine out. I want to repeat one word for you: Leave. Roll the word around on your tongue for a bit. It is a beautiful word, isn’t it? So strong and forceful, the way you have always wanted to be. And you will not be alone. Don’t worry, everything will still be here when you get back. It is you who will have changed.”
Anticipating letting something go or maybe embracing something new is sometimes terrifying for me. What if door number 2 isn’t what I hoped, what if it isn’t better? What if I can never come back to what I have now? And maybe this fear is about breaking away from a home you’re in, a city, a place you’ve become so comfortable in, a place where the grid of the streets can be traced with your eyes closed.
Or it could be the fear of letting go of someone in your life, maybe because their grip on you is not a loving one, or maybe your love is not reciprocated in the way it deserves to be. But sometimes the idea of holding onto something that saddens you is easier to accept than the idea of holding onto nothing.
Maybe you read that passage and thought about leaving your safety net, your financially stable job that puts food in your belly but leeches the sanity from your mind. Maybe it reminded you that every day you clock in, and that this is not what you stayed awake in bed dreaming about.
We’ve become comfortable with where we stand in many of our life’s situations, because we know the outcome of every day. We know what the end of the week looks like because we’ve experienced it over and over again and we know we can handle it. We’re surviving aren’t we?
But we’ll never realize that the most beautiful and cherished moments of our lives will be those that we can’t see coming, those that we can’t anticipate.
You are capable. You are loveable. You are deserving.
Let go of your fear of change. Embrace the possibility to be surprised by your life. Door number 2 might not trump door number 1. But the beautiful thing about it is that you were strong enough to leave the first door, and now daring enough to abandon the second. Step forward into growth and never be afraid to reach for more. Your soul will never be disappointed by novelty.